extremely extremely miserable. argh. physically i mean, not emotionally. just in case i get flooded with wellmeaning comments

so today we went to clerk a patient. he was a v cheerful cute old man with half his teeth gone and just kept laughing with us. and when we were done, he asked us for our autographs.

你们可以帮我签个名马？留作纪念！

haha and how could we say no…?

today was also the day i grew to be a stronger person. hurhur. my skin grew thicker cos i survived a grilling from a con who fires questions like a machine gun. O.o but being the masochist that i am, i feel quite happy abt it (after getting over the trauma) cos i felt my learning was uh. growing exponentially. haha. im mad.

went for medicamp finale too. well, just for abt an hour. =) it was fun, as it should be! but i felt sad knowing such things will never be part of my life anymore. sigh…

i’m quite tired of you.. i might be enjoying myself, but u are also stressing me out too much. what with crazy cons who wants us to be in the wards 24/7 yet go home and read up on all the diseases, and specialty teachings, and case write-ups, and cmps, and scary tutors. i wish u were over and all the info is automatically downloaded into my brain.

i wish i were done with u. but then it wld mean eopt is near. sigh.

i’ll just get u over and done with (for good) and then look forward to my electives. yes.

time has gone by
innocence is lost
things have passed
people have changed

and i’m left standing here..
wondering what went wrong
wishing i could go back in time

sigh.

“.. it may be precipitated by something unpleasant like [going for a stressful tutorial] or occur in a crowded, hot room; patients often sigh and yawn and feel nauseated and sweaty before fainting…”

“Find out if there is any warning, e.g. dizziness or palpitations…”

ahem. reading that reminded me of thursday. i felt intense palpitations while walking to tutorial due to sheer stress.. then we proceeded to have discussion in a small MO room where the aircon was spoilt (and 11 pple were squeezed into it).. and then i kept sighing and yawning (though that cld be due to my avg 4-5 hour sleep.im turning into a pradip!).

the rush of deadlines descends upon me.

and that sums up my incoherent thoughts now.

Thank God for putting nice tutors and doctors and nurses ard me. =) and friends who are willing to teach too.

but im still sleepy. and i’ve still got things to do by tmr. sigh.

and so today was the day pradip and i decided to crash dr chang’s call. and dun judge us for it! it was fun! hahaha.

yes it was an exciting night with an ever-extending list of patients to see, and it was interesting to see the mad life of an on call doctor. and yes we saw all kinds of cases, from a collapsing patient (i nearly cried) to acute cases, to even an elective case.. from cardio to… pancreatitis. the MO we ended up following was really nice and taught us and let us clerk one pt for him.. and  said he has never been so busy since his HO years.. but yes, exciting! his phone never stopped making noise for more than 5 minutes.. so poor thing (welcome to our lives!).

but anw, that wasn’t why it was fun..well, it was, partly. but it was v fun cos pradip was being so smurf-like and telling me all his smurfy exploits, and we were just a couple of gossip mongers tagging along on a night call. hurhur. lala.

so yes, it was fun, but ask me again when im a HO. my answer might have changed. hurhur.

p/s: thank you muchly, adele, for picking me up after my night call! =)

jasmine makes me laugh.

loving my posting. =)